hope....

What is hope? Do you ever wonder exactly what it is? Ever wonder why we have urges to have hope in something? Ever wonder why we lose hope? A lot has happened in my life in the last few weeks such as losing a friend, job stress, lack of trust in a loved one, uncertainty about the future. At times i felt like i was suffocating. Other times i felt like there was no way out or around the obstacle. At times i even had to question God. I went to a funeral last Friday and in the midst of grieving i found hope. It had long been ignored and snuffed out. It was a hope that had long been forgotten. It was my hope in God, creator of all life. Christ is my hope. Hope led to the issue of trust and I realized that I am in need. In need of a Savior. I have been trying to do things on my own and have over time become calloused to the love of Christ for me. I don't understand life. I can't control certain things nor am I always responsible for other peoples choices. The hope of Christ runs deep into my soul. Trusting in Christ goes even further. Both are bigger than me. I can barely wrap my head around all this. But I have decided that is comes down to this: Am I am going to place my trust and hope in Christ? Yes or no. Only I can decide.