gdogjdogh tu-[osr=t9 egj!!!

i am so frustrated and restless. and it is no one's fault but my own. i am trying to fix this but i feel so stuck and nailed down. no one should feel this way. i am praying at least i think i am and well no answers yet just the idea to go somewhere but where? i just need to jump in but i feel like my feet are cemented and i feel clueless as to a direction.....damn it....help me God please!