I am once again restless and ready to go somewhere....anywhere..... While I am traveling this weekend for a long overdue visit to OH, I fear it will not be satisfying to my restless soul. Some days I am so okay with Indiana but other days I just want to leave this and go somewhere, a place where no one knows my name. I am reading the book Into the Wild and Chris McCandless did just that. He left home and went west. He assumed a new name and choose to lose his identity as Chris. He spent time traveling up and down the west coast before going to Alaska. But he just went and didn't look back. I know this is extreme thinking and an extreme thing to do but wow what risk and passion! What devotion to live life fully. So here is what I have decide to do. I am staying in Indiana for now. At least through September. However, if my current situation continues to chisel away slowly at my soul, I have to leave before it dies completely. There are a lot of exciting things happening here with my family and friends. Even work is pretty exciting (most days) but I am not convinced I am to be here. I am not convinced that I am living up to my fullest potential. And I know the adventure is not over. It's like I am stuck in slow traffic on the interstate. Maybe I am to be here but as of now, I dream of something more.
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I understand! Midwest is so midwest. it's not like we have earthquakes here or beautiful blue skies. Oh wait never mind. I just felt a tremor. You are in a great position right now to do those things that God is throwing your way. Be still and listen . . . then jump and fear later.
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